
“Compromise” something I had been accustomed to even before I knew this word. This use to come so naturally to me that I couldn’t even comprehend that I was actually sacrificing so much of myself for people and things around me. Even the people around me were so habituated to this lifestyle of mine that for them it wasn’t something new.
All this while I didn’t feel that what I am doing is an injustice to myself, that I am degrading my whole being. Because this is something I have been doing all my life, so I thought this is how it should be done.
But one fine day my illusion broke, though it was devastating, I was exposed to reality. I was standing naked in front of reality all bruised and wounded, suddenly feeling weak, and fragile. All this while my illusion didn’t let me feel the pain. There I came to know that I have to make a very tremendous and dynamic change in my life. I have to stop treating myself the way I do. I need to get out of this trap of “compromise “. I need to embrace my self-worth. I need to rebel. I need to boost my self-esteem and embrace my individuality. I had actually degraded my being to nothing by drinking this poison of compromise again and again. I had forgotten that it takes two to tango and my compromises alone wouldn’t actually solve everything.
After all this, came the reformed me. Many people didn’t like the new me but that’s fine because I was myself, who was open for adjustments but not one-sided compromise.
_By insight_of_me